Thursday, January 04, 2007
Lessons  |
 I had to walk around the world to understand that it was better to stay where he was . My impatience would not let me wait for the good. Rather, it was my blindness that would not let me see the good that I came. Although disappointed and sad, I feel good about having learned these lessons. So I can understand more about and help others not to do the same. Today I'm staring at the memories. Some images are presented again and again, many of them that I want to erase forever. But I can not, I face them every day to be at peace. ------------------------------------ -------------------------------------- ;     broken glass Past that will haunt me forever. Error many committed, mistake I made. Past mark me for life. lesson that many learn , lesson I learned. Past is repeated. Action many repeated, action I not repeat. ---------------------------------------------- -------------------------  Error after the earthquake was calm with a kiss that brought a tidal wave of Love And there I was drowned.   ;  One more day  Every morning I wake up smiling, by the memory of your smile. Every day I become more cheerful, by the memory of your laughter. Every day I'm more polite, by the memory of your affection. Every day I understand more the world by the memory of your attention. Every night I sleep with dreams, by the memory of you. Still, Every day I get serious, by the fact that not here. Each day ended feeling sad, by the reality that we are here. Every day I'm more hostile by the fact that you're not here. Every day I leave most of the world, by the reality that we are here. Every night I fall asleep in tears, why not here. ---------------------------------------------- ------------------ Back to be alone with my company. But with a desire to help others and avoid to go through what I did.  Mental  That's mental. "I said Edmund. I'm not sure. "I replied. The mind is powerful, the mind tricks. Edmundo I am aware of it. "I said seriously. Did not you watch what you asked for real life? Edmundo No. "I said looking down. And not acted properly. What is right? What makes me feel good, I guess. You think? Si. And what do others think? not. Do not you care? Not that I care, is ... Is that it? "He interrupted. not. never know anything. know. Silence ... Tell me about a time you felt the emptiness in the chest. -Edmund sat on my bed with my legs between crusades. It's a teenage boy, but even with factions of child black hair and blue eyes. Serious and innocent look. Es .. say it is a kind of angel but rare. was when I first saw what is loneliness. "I answer. What is it? is not having anyone to your side. A love? not only love can be a friend or whatever. Someone who understands you and give you love, someone to hug you, that makes you happy, who cares about you. And have you seen her loneliness? Si. And your heart felt like? No. Why? My mind realized that many people around me who I want. As my family for example, that soothes my heart. Ooh. Tell me about your family. I do not want to talk about it. "I said, folding his arms, sitting in my chair. I studied for a while and I realized that ... -Edmundo was silent and I think I asked him to wait. ... there is a certain distance. Bah, that's normal. "I said no importance. No. Si. understand that. Please study the thousands of families that exist and most are really as dysfunctional or worse than this. But that's not good. Tell me. -Sarcasm. That's mental. you going to follow? I freaked. Edmundo I look innocent, but not smiling. Never did. And you are mental? do not know, maybe for you if it is. Am I mental? Si. "I looked at him and made a face. You are a mental problem! Why? -wonder with a child's voice. me insane. So the problem is you mental? Oh, what you think? Do you have a mental problem? Can you stop saying that? "I said in annoyed tone. It was pretty annoying that creature. And who has a mental problem? Everyone! He shouted. Everyone in this damned world are mentally ill. Edmundo was silent thinking and I went for a drink. Then he gave me something that did not offer anything but how to take the thing? When you return, he was reading one of my many notes. What the hell are you doing?! "I remove the annoying notes. 're a lamb. said looking into my eyes with her beautiful face. Cursed. What the hell you mean I'm a sheep? Aja and you are unbearable. Love is on top of your list. Ready for what? "I did not know that List was speaking. list everything. Explain well please, I have little time. Why are you so impatient? Why are you so desperate? love for you is most important in life. Who does not? "I said, thinking it was something obvious. I could see that not all humans have that first. Well ... "I left thinking .- Everyone is different. I think I have felt love once, but forget it. I think love is beautiful. Yes, they say. "I answered hated voice. You know very well. I do not talk of love. Why? Can you change the subject please?! I want to know that love is for you. I can not. Why? Why not! Why can not you? Why is not ok! "I really was upset. Look out the window and I was sad .- Do not know. "I said softly. If you know it. I know you are love, you have to know. I stood in silence for a long time. Edmund began to play with my pillow. Jodi strange I thought. Why look at me like that? Rare. How? you are weird kid. Do not you know? Forget . "You're weird? So they say. Who? not, people. Why? Because they say I am not common. Why? acted differently and I guess they do not know how to behave with me. Oh, I understand. I went to fit my stuff in the gabetero while Edmund looked at the moon. Did you look at it a lot like her? , I wonder. Si. Is not it pretty? Si. I conquer. Then do . "I said following the game. I see love. Good for you. already made a friendship. Good. Friendship is also beautiful, I like it. Me too. Yes? The appreciate. Is what has kept me alive for now. I thought I was the heart that kept you alive. That feeds the heart as well. Oh. And that feeds the mind? The knowledge I guess. Do you still the mind or heart? I think ... I'm more rational mind. But when you follow the mind, the heart does not complain? Sometimes. Did not you say you are mentally ill? How is it possible that you follow? I think you should rely more on the heart. Ok first I argue that it's all mental and now you say you follow your heart What's wrong? I just said what I've been taught. Well you were taught wrong. why I want to see is love. I feel it is. If I fail because everything is really mental. That we would get all. ---------------------------------------------- ----------------------------- remember a noise  is noisy here! just my head. This remembering his words. pass again and again and again through my mind. Damn cayense Now There is one who talks too much. And there is another who speaks very little. I cut the tongue of the first And give it to second. who talked much to very little. And that little talk did much more than the first. I do not remember most of the first, but I like the second. But speech not talk. And now came the first and kept talking ... Blablablablablabalabalabblaa ... Shut up! That discomfort you! you hang up. comes second ... Blah .... That's it? Blah ... Um, do not feel anything else? Blah ... Perhaps you moron!? You do not know say otherwise? Blah? Damn! The first thing I complain a lot of noise and now the second sound does nothing. There is not what I want! The 1st: BLABLABALBALABALABLABALBABLBALBALABBLLB! Return you. Bla! Are you there? ... Hello? ... (Unresponsive) died? ... seems so. Return to second. Blah? I liked your actions. Blah. Because you have to go? Blah ... But why? Look blah blah ... (Hangs up) Hello? ... ( Idiots ...  |
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